Imagine a kid, a young boy.

Standing there with his father behind his back, he feels safe and secure; he has his father’s arms at his neck and shoulders. They’re watching something … anything … it could be watching the sunset, watching the effects of a rainstorm, watching a car accident, watching some construction crew working with machinery, whatever. The kid feels safe and secure knowing that his father will protect him from the crazy world, knowing that his father will not abandon him, knowing that his father will explain anything confusing to him … and so the kid has either a contented smile or an inquisitive look, on his face the whole time … and anytime he sees something he doesn’t understand, he immediately relies and trusts his father to explain it to him.

The kid has absolute, unwavering confidence that his father knows everything, that his father is the perfect source for all the answers … that is the way the kid thinks, with that big smile on his face, and those starry eyes, and all those dreams in his head.

And in this picture, if I am the kid, then the arms around my shoulders, the hand that is over my head protecting me wherever I go, the entity that I rely on if anything seems confusing … is none other than Allaah.

He is closer to me than my own jugular vein, He is more nearer to me than my own heart, or even than my own blood.

I rely on Him the same way because I know He loves me more than my parents ever could, and all those times when I was out, alone, it was Allaah alone who brought me to what I needed, brought me to do what I needed to do. I have never felt like I didnt have Him at my back.

Never.

Every step I take, every move I make, everytime I reach my hand for something, … my insurance policy … is Him alone. My eeman is what underlines everything I do in life, my confidence, my assertion, my everything … no matter what I face in this life, no matter how troubling or even if at first glance it seems paradoxical, confusing, or nearly impossible … I take it with quiet grace and wait for Allah to show me what its all about, on His own time, and not on mine.